Traveling north, traveling north to find you.

This saline is clouding my thoughts. I want to look clearly upon this and try to remain sincere to myself. Being alone is so hard right now. I feel weak. So listless and helpless. I want this all to be over. I want the clarity and stability that I've worked so hard for. I don't want to lose all that I love. I don't want to be clingy, but all that can cure this endless emptiness is the warmth of a heartbeat. I'm so sorry that I'm placing all of this upon you. I wish I could face these demons all alone but I've lost the strength. I want to be the one who makes you smile. When will the end come to find me? I don't even think I have what it takes anymore.